I am a man whose heavenly gifts are striped by this cruel world. Or shall I say I change them with the deceitfulness of this world like Essaw. Any ways they are gone once and even a sorrowful cry cannot win them back. I am very much in sorrow because the devil took the gifts that I should use to bring multiple folds of fruitfulness to the Lord.
I would not strive to try again if somebody is appointed to do the job I have created to do. But if that is the case, I might not live today. God should have taken me long time ago. It means God has still plans for my life. Even if my wings are broken, God has plans with me still. Even if my youth and energy is spent in vanity doing that I wasn't born to do.
Titus 3:3 -
We used to be stupid, disobedient, and foolish, as well as slaves of all sorts of desires and pleasures. We were evil and jealous. Everyone hated us, and we hated everyone. God our Savior showed us how good and kind he is. He saved us because of his mercy, and not because of any good things that we have done. God washed us by the power of the Holy Spirit. He gave us new birth and a fresh beginning. God sent Jesus Christ our Savior to give us his Spirit. Jesus treated us much better than we deserve. He made us acceptable to God and gave us the hope of eternal life. This message is certainly true.
He still has got some jobs for me before he takes me. God knows how much my heart was burning for his callings. I heard clearly in some form of channels of communication in my spirit what some of the Lord blessed servants confirm it to me.
You know when God created you he created you for his purpose of preaching gospel and winning souls for the kingdom of God. After we ruin our calling, it is hared to remember a day that we spent a full happy day. We should do better than what we are doing now to be a burning sacrifice to the Lord as this is always in our blood and this is who we are from the beginning as God made us him self this way.
We spent our time thinking if we could bring happiness in the eyes of the sorrowed. But we are still agonizing in pain because there is no difference in there lives. Sometimes I think I might go back to him, the Lord leaving everything at least stay in his presence for one day. That is wheather I eat or not, I drink or not, I got some shoes or not.
God knows I love him so much at least more than my self. We might have fall in love with a person at one time and loved that peson more than our selves but not more than God. So if we do that for a human being, I think we can do it for the almighty. If we can write a letter of love and appreciation totally overwhelmed and subdued by thier love, I think we can do it better for our God and saviour.
But I know what the Lord is doing now in my life. I got to stay for a while to get prepared to see the face of most righteous. I should also accumulate some money to buy the greatest gift I can imagine to the Lord - a very well known perfume that is worthy in the eyes of the Lord that I might take it and break it and wash his leg with it - as I am nothing but a sinner.
Every body who believes and confesses that he is a sinner should be able to prove his love by loving Jesus the most before he forgive us. In fact the measure of our forgiveness is totally dependent on the kind of perfume we should buy and the level of worship we commence on his feet.
Luke 7:44 -
He turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Have you noticed this woman? When I came into your home, you didn't give me any water so I could wash my feet. But she has washed my feet with her tears and dried them with her hair. You didn't greet me with a kiss, but from the time I came in, she has not stopped kissing my feet. You didn't even pour olive oil on my head, but she has poured expensive perfume on my feet. So I tell you that all her sins are forgiven, and that is why she has shown great love. But anyone who has been forgiven for only a little will show only a little love." Then Jesus said to the woman, "Your sins are forgiven."
I love Jesus and all I ask him is to give at least a second chance to be his servant on earth. This time, I need not only the gift of miracles and spirit of service but also a wise heart who can tell the wrong from the right. Father, we now know this world is like vagabond. They have no integrity not to take what is not theirs. They first become very obsessed with our things and they snatch them out of our hands with out any shame in their face. And my problem is I don't know this until it is taken form me by force.
Lets pray God is going to continue his work with you as he did with somebody you follow all your life to learn wisdom and God s way. Again it is a great covenant that God made with his servants and people. And I pray that we could live our lives to learn and receive grace from God and anointment just to continue the great plan of God in our lives.
One day I met this pastor that anointed me and many christains just a couple of years ago and even if I pass through a lot of troubles and temptations since then, I am still in the house of God waiting what I should do next. He brings Gods word and encouragement to Gods people. You cannot see negative change in his life. He is still has a broken heart when it comes to serve others with great humility and compassion.
How wonderful is to get such kind of servant of the Lord who just bring the right word at the right time. How comfortable is it to be hugged and kissed by him as it is the same as getting God hag you and kiss you. In other word s a man of God out there hugging and touching Gods people can not be done with out being in the presence of the Holy Spirit and if the Holy Ghost is there, then I got comforted by Jesus not by just a human being.
May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit lead us to eternal blessing and joy, in Jesus Name, AMEN!