Psalm 73:25
Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you.bMy flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Instantiate the spirit of battle in me, O Lord in Jesus name! Give me my previous privilege of being your son my Lord and my God. I will cry on to you. Restore my faith in you.
To whom I shall cry? Whom I have on earth but you? Whom I have in heaven but you? I will not stop crying on to you until you hear me and help me. I believe I am not crying in vain. I believe you when you do miracles in people lives. I saw you delivering and snatching men from the mouths of the lions.
I need my miracles too. I want you to snatch me from the belly of the python. I am in hell burning day and night. Save me my Lord, I have no one to help me. I will spend the rest of my life in service to you.
I will be grateful and I will proclaim your name to generations. I will speak of your salvation to my brothers. It is only you that I believe and love more than anything in life. It is this curse that sucks my blood day and night which hides your face from me. You know I have no one but you, O Lord.
You know I am considered worthless in front of any one for your name's sake, my Lord. I was delightful in my shame as long as I keep your promises. I never forget your teachings except this terrible disease. The curse that I got it from the darkness of this world is almost finishing me.
Don't you want me Lord? If I die, I say my family or me deserve what we do with this life. I won't feel pity for any of that. But what about you, dear God. Do you want the death of the sinner?
What about the vision you gave me? What about all those promises you made to me? I know I have forgotten some of them but you can always remind me of them. Isn't you that said, "I will never leave you nor for sake you".
You promised, I will be with you till the end. You were confident on yourself when you made your promises. You were not relying on any body but you when you come to me.
I don't believe and never believed that I heard the wrong message from you. I know my callings and it is been confirmed by your messengers many times. Your love is fading in me since I am not practicing it. And this makes you unhappy I know.
And this brings a curse to me. If not preaching or teaching, I can do something to your kingdom. Even dying in your hand is a great privilege. Your presence is all I need; it provides salvation for my soul. You are all I have got on earth.
I will dedicate a time for you Lord and see your face daily. Just take my sins away from me that cover your face from me. I will get back to you and I will do well as before. I will be trusting on you and strive to keep my promises.
I will always be in a spirit of prayer and thanks giving for everything you do for me. I will fast and pray and listen to your Word so that I shall be strong in your Spirit. I will always sing of your love and praises in the midst of your congregation.
If we return to our God with all our heart, he is willing to forgive all our sins and able to cleanse us from our inequities with the blood of the Lamb, Jesus Christ. Worthy is the Lamb to receive glory and honor for the kingdom of God shall stand forever.
Originaly written June 2011