This is the very moment of our lives to seek the face of God. We no longer control how things work around us. We are trying to figure out the direction of our lives. We feel so weak and afraid of the world. How are we going to continue like this?
The Lord has prepared a great journey ahead of us. There is a huge cup of destiny we should drink in front of us. But how are we going to get there living a life of unrighteousness. May be this is the path the Lord used to prepare us for a better purpse. But nothing in us like the way of life we are living.
It is disgraceful and sinful. The Lord doesn't want our lives to be like this too. It is sinful in a way that it neither does any harm nor brings any glory to God. No matter what it is, our soul hates doing it every time. We don't even know why we should do it. We are still trying to figure out the purpose of our journey.
Everything that has happened in our lives happened for a reason. We are on a journey that is way before its end. Still there is too much to accomplish and too much to fight the good fight of faith. But we cannot continue living like this. We cannot even tolerate the sinful nature of the world any more.
But still what can we do? Our flesh beat us every time we want to get up. We already took this as the Lord wants us to be. The sickness of our flesh and the weakness of our body is hunting us down till we surrender and give up. We still have to eat and still have to drink from the table of sinful congregation.