Under any circumstance or by any selection criteria we (those who have been saved by grace and saw the unbounded love of God through Christ) don't deserve to be the servant of the Lord. We don't deserve to be categorized under the group of righteous people who are servant of the most fearsome God. We were very stubborn in our ways and with wicked heart and didn't listen to God all the time.
If there is a man who has tested the mercy of God by going to his sins over and over again, it is me. If there is any one out there that I know who has done many wrong things in life, it is most probably me. For every wrong thing I do, I don't have too much excuse but my anger in me was eating up my flesh and soul.
If you come to see a man who has lived his life all right and lead himself in the right way, probably you are making a mistake. If you are thinking right now that I might have the perfect way of life, you have found the wrong person. My life was neither perfect nor flawless. I have failed my self, men and God many times.
If you come to see a man who has won all his battles, you are on the wrong address. However if you come to see a man who lived to see this day by the mercy of God, you found it. I didn t deserve to see the light of the day if is not by his mercy. I am not worthy of any of the blessings that God has for his children because of my stubbornness. I was not able to seek the face of God as my hands are filthy and my life is full of sin. If you understand what really grace means, you know why I am here. But if you don t, here is one for you to see.
My life was never complete before I met Jesus. My life was full of turmoil and a lot of murmuring and grumbling. My life was shapeless and meaningless before the Spirit of God gently passes through me with favor and compassion. But when he does, my dear completely changed the way I see things. I don't see now the way I used to see things.
I don't murmur, complain and grumble at least as I used to. No matter how deep the cut of the wound is, I still praise the Lord for his unfailing love and everlasting mercy with all my heart. I seek his face and gaze at his promises that he will come to take me to the resting place.
I know for one thing all the wounds that the devil has caused in to our lives might not completely heal in this life. But it is another thing to believe God that he is preparing a resting place for those who have been hurt so much in this world and an agonizing fire for those who have caused all the sufferings.